Shadow MLK


I’m not always the brightest bulb on the string. Sometimes I grope and grovel around to realize I must tighten my seat in the socket.

In the midst of all the global violence, something about my recent Throwdown experience bothered me. That’s putting it mildly. Days of praying, talking it out with wiser minds, reading, reflecting and praying some more led to some profound realizations.

I occasionally misjudge – especially myself. Okay, I do that a lot making myself fairly miserable. My problem du jour was fear – disguised as cowardice.  The latest shocker:

meekness, non-violence is frequently mistaken for weakness or cowardice. I confirmed this in my self-judgement.

Friends, yeah and my trained, professional counselor showed me the source of my fear; shame. Occasionally in my past I responded to bullies and abusers ferociously.

“So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus.“*1 

Clearly I must continuously confront my potential for violence. Avoiding confrontations is a natural result from such fear. In my world trusting God helps me overcome that reality as I practice the way of the cross – strength through nonviolence.

I believe that’s partly why I feel the agony of these worldwide events so deeply. Seriously, I can’t stop thinking about them. It’s horrifying because I am as guilty of violence as the next guy. Like many of us are “one paycheck away from being homeless,” I could have been steps away from crossing the line into madness, committed one of those atrocities, made one of those deadly mistakes. I must choose.

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” *2

That’s my reality today. More than ever before I thank God, the Source of strength I easily take for granted.

Gandhi strong


I can live with appearing cowardly. Being slower than many people I admire is okay. Sure, to be a great thinker of stuff like many of my friends would be wonderful. I’m not. But I’m not alone either. God uses flawed humans, our friends, our heroes to shine into our lives. So once in a while, I have bright moments too. We are continuously faced with choices. Today I choose to make friends with my fear.


lincoln enemy friend


*1 Romans 8:1 (NLT)

*2 Philippians 4:6,7 (NLT)


Images courtesy *FreeNeoWallpapers **Gandhi and Lincoln Images courtesy Pinterest




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16 responses to “Reality

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  3. Awesome thoughts and quotes.

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  4. I did not truly appreciate my roots of pacifism until a counselor told me, “You’re not a coward, you’re a peacemaker.” Those words changed my life. Great post. I love Gandhi too. America needs a leader like him.

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    • Bless God, I had a similar experience (long ago). I grew up loathing myself thinking I was a meeley-moused wimp among giants. It’s funny how some of the giants turned out to me mice and eagles carried them away, but the actual greats still stand strong. I agree, though Gandhi was human and flawed as the best of us, the world needs leaders like him today. Thank you for your feedback, Larry. I appreciate our convos.


  5. Great post! Loved the Ghandi quote.

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  6. Enjoyed your post… I am enthralled with the ending!!
    What better way could there possibly be than unconditional love… as we make friends of our enemies… 🙂

    Kind Regards and #winning- K

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  7. emotionsoflife2016

    Powerful entry

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