I was to board another plane soon. Nothing new: hurry, clear security, find the right gate, and then wait. Walk around. And wait…

With planning and foresight long journeys have never been that big a deal. But as this third departure date neared the deal felt huge. Traveling on an unforgiving budget required me rising at ungodly hours. By ungodly I mean – no matter how I tried to rest – I’d drag my exhausted self up 60 – 90 minutes after I finally drifted off to sleep.

Despite all my forethought and intentions, as desperately as I wanted restful sleep before traveling, my mind unfailingly kept me awake. The beast is simply unruly.


I was packed and ready to walk out the door. And yet hours after praying and retiring as I’d planned I was still awake, rehashing my mental check list:

  • Clean house.
    • Why? First thing upon returning I will clean again.
      • Wait. Did I vacuum under the bed…
  • It’s been too long since I visited the grand kids. Skype and Phone calls don’t tell all.
    • What if they don’t like their gifts?
  • What if my hand washables don’t dry in time – a first ever since the 1960’s?

This is crazy. I  MUST sleep.

  • Did I chuck perishables from my ‘fridge? I don’t want foul ‘fridge when I get back.
    • I refuse to get up and check.
  • What is that smell? Did I overlook something?
  • Crap. Did I pack the new underwear?
    • I am NOT getting up to check.
  • Did I send the final version of my last submission?
    • (Still haunted by that time I actually posted a first draft by mistake,) a panic-stricken Roo sprang from the bed, unpacked the laptop, started it up… Yes, I’d sent the “final.”
      • I repacked even better this time.

Before long I wondered if I dozed through my alarm. My phone blindingly insisted it was after midnight. Hmmm… The date was the 29th.

My flight is at oh-dark-thirty – on the 30th.

I laughed out loud. And then prayed again, “Okay Lord, the joke’s on me. Please, please take over now.”

With that amen I was sound asleep.

I awoke the next morning refreshed, energized, all packed and ready to go. After a great work out I hiked the river trail and then gathered from the garden. When it was time I went right to sleep and woke as planned.

You’d think God planned it all that way.

“So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time He will lift you up in honor. Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.” 1 Peter 5:6, 7 (NLT)


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16 responses to “Acquiesce

  1. I recognize so many of thoughts, maybe we all have them? I keep thinking I should get up and read, but then I think about how all my lightbulbs are now leds and supposedly they mess with your sleep. And then I start worrying about leds messing with my vision, and then… oy!
    Glad you eventually got the rest you needed! 🙂

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  2. Sometimes, we just can’t get out of our own way. Great post! God bless!

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  3. Oh yes, I know that feeling well…when you’re desperate to sleep but your mind has other ideas!

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  4. Adebisi Adetunji M.

    Casting all our cares on him settles things… But trust our human mind to keep working hard to resolve issues. Thankfully you were able to catch some sleep 😀

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  5. Oh yeah. Hate those early morning liftoffs.


    • Used to be those red eye flights made for nice cat naps, but that didn’t happen for me. Too many short flights I suppose. God willing I’ll try again next year – and maybe then I’ll have a better budget for more convenient flights and better hotels.


  6. Oh boy do I get this. I just got back from a trip to help aging relatives. It was open ended (didn’t know when I’d return) and involved going across the country. I had no idea the situation I was going into or if I’d be able to help at all. But I discovered one can function on 2 hours of sleep a night for 3 days. (Me and insomnia are lifelong acquaintances.) The rest of the story is long so I won’t bore you with it here.

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    • I sure hope it worked out well, Mary. You’ve always been so good and faithful to family. I believe we chatted over an entire pot of tea about our methodology around sleep struggles. Isn’t it funny how some things just don’t change. LOL.


      • I wasn’t able to convince my uncle he needs help. But it’s bringing me to my knees more often (Lord, protect them driving from northern Michigan to southern Florida). And I got a bonus trip to see the grand kids in Greenville SC that I haven’t seen for over 3 years. So how cool is that?!

        And yes, I thought I had a vague recollection that we have bed induced brain activity challenges in common too. Up in Heaven, we’ll finally get the rest we need.


        • So much in common, so little time… I’m sad to admit I’m glad someone else must wait too long between grand visits. I will however pay some penance by means of praying over your uncle’s trip ❤


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