Kyle Idleman’s book Not a Fan seriously tripped me up at first.

This kind of trip is good – challenging our attitudes. With multiple media pushing and pulling us in so many directions, regular neck up check ups are invaluable.

So on that particular morning what I expected to be an elegant swan dive into the book at the top of my stack became a shocking face plant instead.

“Here’s my point: many of us are quick to say, “Yes I’m a follower of Jesus,” but I’m not sure we really understand what we are saying.*” 


Thinking about it I suddenly wanted to explain myself to Jesus.

Maybe you navigate through life effortlessly. I don’t. And typically me getting out of sync with Jesus guarantees a sudden, cringeworthy stumble.

Immediately I realized that by racing to get caught up I had been forfeiting one-on-one time with God. Yet again. (Audible, heavy sigh.)

I suppose that makes me a fan.

I have been a Cubs fan as long as I can remember. Over the years as I moved around the country I half-halfheartedly followed other local teams. Still, I didn’t lose sight of my Cubbies.

So maybe I’m that kind of Jesus Fan.

But then again, Not A Fan later suggested I might be a marginal follower. As I read on my follower rating improved – some. And dropped again. And rose.

I don’t walk around with a Bible under my arm or interject Book, chapter and verse into every conversation. Okay, maybe sometimes, silently to myself. I use a Bible app most every day. But that’s not because I’m so religious (lost in church world or in Mosaic law). It’s because I LOVE people so very much I easily stray into their lives, lose sight of my own course and sometimes wind up offending someone.

Most important, while I maintain that connection with Jesus, I’m good. He sends the alerts I need. As I listen carefully He helps me hear myself, keeping me on track. He encourages me onward constantly, faithfully leading me right where He wants me – with or without my smart phone.

What’s more, He lets me think that I made good stuff happen! Good or bad, when we get together Jesus first shows me how He loves me. Then He shows me how much He loves me. He shows me what I blew up when I veered off course toward my understanding – and where He steered me right back.

And He shows me he’ll make it okay, I should try again.

Maybe without the faceplant.

Have you experienced what a wonderful God He is lately?

“… if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.” 2 Chronicles 7:14 (NIV)



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*Kyle Idleman, Not a Fan: Becoming a Completely Committed Follower of Jesus

**image courtesy Productivetothemax.com



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13 responses to “Faceplant

  1. Sounds like an interesting book. I know what you mean about needing regular check-ups — it’s way too easy to veer off path. And somehow for me, the times when I feel most sure of myself are the times I’m most likely to trip up. 🙄

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  2. Faceplant – Funny but not so funny!

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  3. I love reading about your walk with Jesus. Your posts often remind me to reconnect.

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  4. Adebisi Adetunji M.

    I call it “face in the mirror”, helping me see just where I am in my walk with him and nodding me gently to make amends and move up. A thought-provoking piece Roos, thanks for sharing.

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  5. On my former job I received the most support and encouragement from my Muslim and Buddhist coworkers. They have a great work ethic and are kind and compassionate. To this day my two closest friends from that job are a Muslim woman from Iran and my Japanese Buddhist girlfriend. Every day I thank God for them and we stay in touch.

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  6. Sometimes people think being a Christian means being a doormat. Not so. Jesus threw the money changers out of the temple and I don’t hesitate to delete and unfriend toxic people from my life. My previous profession forced me to be tough with rough raw edges. I often had to defend myself verbally and physically. I will never apologize for my behavior. Fortunately at my age I don’t care what people think of me. Only my opinion of me matters. Yes there are horns holding up my halo. I’m like my namesake in the book of Judges. I own the title of Warrior Women. My circle is small and I’m happy to keep it that way.

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  7. That’s a fabulous book. It will change you! God bless!

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    • From the introduction on, it already has had a dramatic impact. I like Idleman’s style as much as Bob Goff’s. Be blessed and keep praying it forward \0/


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