Throughout the holiday season I noticed some people saying, “Merry Christmas,” or “Happy Holidays” and “Happy New Year.” I also noticed how sometimes it seemed mechanical, like a thoughtless, knee-jerk action.


It was me. With winter closing in I’d been feeling depressed. Although I had been missing the company of my sons and other siblings, I was far from sad or unhappy. I was experiencing a bio-chemical imbalance. Today I’m blessed to be able to correct that with diet, exercise and therapy. Today I pray fervently for many people I know who need more help.


Today in my cozy little cottage my happiness is unmistakable. Sure, yesterday I didn’t bring in wood for the upcoming week as I’d planned, and then about 4 inches of snow fell as the New Year rolled in. But the wood cribs are loaded with kindling and small logs to get us through until the snowfall lets up.


Last year I could only imagine the happiness and hope in my life today. For years I stubbornly held tight to my beliefs that God loves me even though I felt alone and lonely – I couldn’t imagine thinking about firewood. Today those hopes are realized, my faith and hopes are marvelously evidenced.

Last year hard times had Roan, Opal and I trudging along step-by-step, each of us hoping our lives could be different.

Last year I’d sigh hearing young people voice their personal dreams. I’d experienced too much disappointment to encourage them. I fell silent. Today I smile and help them so their dreams continue to grow. Last year, when I’d all but buried my hopes, my nearly-vanished dream suddenly came vividly true.

Today a new year began in my new reality.

Now I sip my latte watching the snow gently falling on the pastures. This is my dream come true. However, excuse me for a little while, I need both hands to pull my pasture boots on and feed the livestock.

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Thanks God!

“But blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made the Lord their hope and confidence. They are like trees planted along a riverbank, with roots that reach deep into the water.”

Jeremiah 17:7,8 (NLT)




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12 responses to “Renewed

  1. ROO!!! Happy 2017!!! Haven’t “heard” from you in a while. Then again, it’s a two-way thing so, sorry for that. I am just glad you are enjoying the new year 🙂

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  2. I’m so glad you’re happy, Sis. Happy New Year!

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  3. I love the holidays but I am always happy to put Christmas away for the year! Happy New Year to you and may your faith ever be shored up and spilled out!

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  4. Just lovely. Good to hear the perky upbeat spirit in your words. Sometimes, our dreams are fulfilled out of unexpected angles. Wishing you the best of this year Roo.

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  5. Enjoy that latte, Roo and may your New Year be bright!

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  6. bisimodupe1975

    Happy new year Roos, wish you a blessed and better year of having more of your dreams fulfilled.

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  7. Happy New Year, dear Roo! Glad it’s going well, looks beautiful where you are!

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