Over a particularly fast-paced phase of my life, for my boys and me every facet was remarkably intense.

How I remember my boys and me on most school/work day mornings.
I gave my life to Jesus at the peak of that tiger-woman, super-ambitious, take-no-prisoners season. I did so realizing I would have to read the Bible and learn everything to know about God. I had no idea when I’d find time, but I believed I could do it. I had no idea I could actually know Him.
I remember doing my best to make a place for prayer wherever I happened to be. At first whenever all my wheels completely stopped moving, I’d close my eyes and focus my thoughts on Jesus for whatever moments we could steal – traffic signals, school pick-up zones… That worked for me.
Until it didn’t.
Jobs, kids, and more responsibilities than one working, single mom should bear made my prayer-on-the-run kind of belief system seem necessary. Soon the church became a second home. I took on yet another job in the church office. I began understanding some Scriptures and became more religious than I never imagined I would ever be. I soaked it all up like a sponge.
Essentially, I blended in to Church World. Though I felt as tired and worn as ever, people told me Jesus was doing something amazing in me. Secretly I had no idea what.
In reality I was broken, the pieces had begun falling apart. Soon I couldn’t find my mental prayer places anymore.
God changed my circumstances. My mind and my spirit began healing, but not before a heart attack forced me to either stop running or stop living. I laid down and gave God all the pieces of my heart.
As I recuperated I came to appreciate making a designated place to pray, be quiet and listen for God. At times that was a corner of a closet or a chair next to a window in the garage. Wherever it was that place became my sanctuary.
Eventually my boys accepted the new me wasn’t going away. They became comfortable with my occasional pauses, my long talks to God deep in the nights and my occasional far-away gaze (imagining the happy, carefree world I kept hearing about). Before long they stopped wondering about my new, mostly quiet demeanor and eventually they too would visit my prayer place.
The boys made homes and families of their own long ago. And that prayer place now takes up my entire home. It’s Our Place – mine and God’s where everyone’s welcome.
Are you feeling shattered? Is your life too intense?
“I pray that from His glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong.”
Ephesians 3:15 – 17 (NLT)
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Our God is an awesomely, mind expanding and loving !!
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Indescribable, uncontainable, absolutely awesome! Thank you for stopping by.
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There is no end to how our God means to us.
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Indeed. He is the Comforter. John 14:26 ❤
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Amen !!
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This is excellent!! I’m so glad Susie reposted!! God is good, and I’m still learning more about Him!
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I’m glad for Susie too, and glad to say for certain God is good all the time. Thank you for stopping by ❤
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Yes, He is!! You’re very welcome. I enjoyed my visit.
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Reblogged this on susieshy45 and commented:
An amazing testimony
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Thank you for your support, Susie ❤
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That’s a most beautiful witness and outreach. I’m blessed for having read it.
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God never disappoints, eh Anne.
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Never!
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❤ this!
❤ and hugs to you, and thanks for sharing from your heart! God does work in wondrous ways doesn't he!
When you talked about your "prayer place" , it made me think of the War Room movie, have you seen it? Very powerful!
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Only watched War Room 3 or 4 Times 😆
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🙂 🙂 Want to see it again now!
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This blessed me really good. Thank you for sharing your testimony Roos.
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God is good all the time, Bisi. ❤
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What amazing testimony !
Can I reblog this on susieshy45.wordpress.com for others to read this too ?
Susie
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I’m honored, Susie. Feel free.
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lovely to see God working in you and through you. Blessings in Christ.
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Indeed, He is good.
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